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From the blankets, he will rise...
2 min read
One year. One entire year from this place...
I can practically feel the dust entering my throat and cobwebs sticking to my now ridiculously long hair.
As I dust off my old profile and look back at - not only my old projects, but my fellow devwatcher's too - I wonder why I ever stopped visiting, contributing, and socializing on DA in the first place.
Initially I thought it was my self-esteem taking a deep dive in my artwork; feeling that my desire to improve wasn't going at a fast enough pace.
And how could I not? On a daily basis, I come across projects whose quality is well above mine. I know it isn't a healthy perspective, but it's a subconscious thought that pesters on the back of my mind every time I check my devwatch.
Perhaps it was the lack of recognition? I always tell myself that I am a small time artist that treats this stuff as a hobby above all else. Not to mention, I'm not as sociable I used to be to go out there and gather new watchers.
As I write this, I still have no idea what it might have been...
I enjoyed drawing, creating the stories that came with every project.
I enjoyed the little feedback that I got from them.
I enjoyed the conversations had from that feedback.
Dwelling, looking for an answer won't change much.
As you might suspect, I write here to prove that I tend to change that.
Although I haven't drawn in a long time, my ideas never stopped coming.
My first batch of to-be projects will be some new character designs. A great theme to start out with considering it's what I used to specialize in.
It's high time I restarted putting them on paper/tablet. I just hope I'm not too rusty...
I can practically feel the dust entering my throat and cobwebs sticking to my now ridiculously long hair.
As I dust off my old profile and look back at - not only my old projects, but my fellow devwatcher's too - I wonder why I ever stopped visiting, contributing, and socializing on DA in the first place.
Initially I thought it was my self-esteem taking a deep dive in my artwork; feeling that my desire to improve wasn't going at a fast enough pace.
And how could I not? On a daily basis, I come across projects whose quality is well above mine. I know it isn't a healthy perspective, but it's a subconscious thought that pesters on the back of my mind every time I check my devwatch.
Perhaps it was the lack of recognition? I always tell myself that I am a small time artist that treats this stuff as a hobby above all else. Not to mention, I'm not as sociable I used to be to go out there and gather new watchers.
As I write this, I still have no idea what it might have been...
I enjoyed drawing, creating the stories that came with every project.
I enjoyed the little feedback that I got from them.
I enjoyed the conversations had from that feedback.
Dwelling, looking for an answer won't change much.
As you might suspect, I write here to prove that I tend to change that.
Although I haven't drawn in a long time, my ideas never stopped coming.
My first batch of to-be projects will be some new character designs. A great theme to start out with considering it's what I used to specialize in.
It's high time I restarted putting them on paper/tablet. I just hope I'm not too rusty...
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DeviantHEART...
1 min read
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Going home
1 min read
Hey everyone, how's it going?
Just a heads up to my 3 or 2 watchers, me and my family will be moving back to our old house very soon.
During the transition, we will not have any internet access for awhile.
I might use some hotspots or friend's internet if I get the chance.
In the meantime, I'll use the break to be a bit more productive, like draw some more, buy some clothes, get in shape, go back to school, get a job, learn a new language, end world hunger, and maybe even cure cancer.
But I'll probably end up playing some more Xbox.
Take care ~
Just a heads up to my 3 or 2 watchers, me and my family will be moving back to our old house very soon.
During the transition, we will not have any internet access for awhile.
I might use some hotspots or friend's internet if I get the chance.
In the meantime, I'll use the break to be a bit more productive, like draw some more, buy some clothes, get in shape, go back to school, get a job, learn a new language, end world hunger, and maybe even cure cancer.
But I'll probably end up playing some more Xbox.
Take care ~
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And back again...
7 min read
Hey, how's everyone doing?
While things aren't fully restored, I'm glad to at least say I can get on DA more often now.
My ma' and brother made a collaboration to buy a laptop. Since when I had mine they both borrowed it on occasion, it would only be fair for me to use theirs also.
It's a good piece of hardware: A Gateway NV56R06u. Good memory and processor, but a god-awful keyboard. They keys are so stiff and insensitive, you have to use more force when typing, which leads to easier fatigue. Hell, as I write this, I already feel like I need a break.
Since this is another PC, all my data is still lost. I did manage to install my tablet, along with Gimp & Elements. The downer is that all brushes, preferences, etc are all lost.
Speaking of tablets, after about so months of not using it, it feels like learning to use it for the first time all over again. I'm not kidding, my hand felt just a twitchy, if not more so. Meh, I think I'll manage.
Life wise, it can all be summed up in four words: Border-FREAKIN'-lands two!!
I love this game, it totally blew my expectations out of the water. The game is an FPS RPG -OMG - with loot raiding. That's a little sub-genre I am quite fond of; call me crazy, but I love repeating the game just so I can get my hands on slightly shinier piece of armor with probably only one point of defense added. It sounds pathetic writing it out, but eff' yo opinion - This time, I know I am not alone. Haha!
The game took everything from the first installment and multiplied it ten fold. The classes are more varied, characters are more fleshed out, gameplay is smoothed even more, items are seemingly infinite, and the story... Man, the story! If you played the first one, you really didn't have much expectations when it came to the plot since it was as vanilla as it got: Treasure, find it. In this sequel, the game smacks you in the face with a very well written storyline, deep and hilarious characters, and a villain that goes down as the most lovable, yet most sinister bad guy in a video game since Kefka. Not once, but twice, did the plot make my hands drop the controller just so I could cover my mouth with a gasp.
I might be giving the game too much credit for it's story, but in today's age where it always seems to take a back seat to gameplay, it's a very nice breath of fresh air.
To prevent me from writing a full review, I'll just say I highly recommend it to everyone who even remotely likes shooters and/or RPGs. Easily Game of the Year in my book.
Just to spice up this journal entry, I'll take up AleksiRemesArt's latest tag upon myself. Ready? No? Well tough shit.
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Rules:
1. Tell 11 facts about you.
2. Answer those 11 questions your tagger wrote.
3. Write 11 new questions for 11 people you tag.
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11 Facts:
1. I love my dog, Toby. He doesn't ask for much: food and walks, and he vows to be there for me always. If only people were more like that...
2. I can't decide what to do with my life. They say everyone goes through this, but I'm worried I might be taking too much time thinking about it.
3. Video games are bad for you, I know, but I still enjoy the hell out of them. : D
4. I stopped working out, and I am definitely noticing my body reverting to it's original skinny form. I need to take up some sort of martial art.
5. I haven't be drawing much lately. It's not because of lack of ideas, just loss of will power. Has anybody seen it?
6. As much as it pains me to admit, I have been watching a bit of anime and some 90's cartoons. Currently The Slayers and Inspector Gadget.
7. Also Firefly.
8. I broke up with my girlfriend. The break-up still makes no sense, but I'm glad we ended up at least being friends.
9. I'm worried I might have lost a dear friend during the drama. A good friend takes your back when you need it, but what if they do it when you don't?
10. I can't afford a haircut...
11. Border-FREAKIN'-lands TOO!!!!1
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AleksiRemesArt's 11 questions:
1. What is your favorite song?
Hmm, tough call... Crazy by Gnarls Barkly, probably.
2. What kind of characters do you tend to like the most? Heroes, anti-heroes or villains?
How about all of them? A good story tends to have at least one of each.
3. What is your Pokemon team?
Heheh, it's been awhile. Let's see... Ninetales, Hitmonlee, Alakazam, Raichu, Blastoise, and a random grass type.
4. Has there ever been any work of fiction (movie, video game, comic, book etc.) that has made you cry?
Not cry, but Chrono Trigger came close. "Crono Noooooooooo!"
5. What's your horoscope?
Leo... Rawr.
6. Do you follow politics?
Follow wha?
7. Do you like sweets?
Soda. Otherwise, not really.
8. Pick one of the following: coffee, tea or cocoa?
Sweet tea. Coffee leaves a bad taste in my mouth and cocoa is only good in winter.
9. Do you have any OCs? Introduce one of them.
I have been brainstorming one lately. Though her name is not yet finalized: She's Irish, American raised, with some Chinese heritage, works as a fitness instructor, fights with a personalized Tae kwon do/Brawler hybrid martial art, and is second in command in a skateboarding/tagging gang. Though regarded as a natural genius in everything she does by some, her personality leaves something to be desired. Cocky and hotheaded, although she does have a softer side towards select some.
10. How long have you been drawing/ writing?
Since kindergarten.
11. How many times have you done this meme?
First time, actually. : P
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And now 11 questions. I'll keep it simple, bonus points as to why:
1. What's your favorite bottled water brand?
2. Your shoe size?
3. Apples or oranges?
4. Your favorite season?
5. Your dress style? (Preppy, urban, punk, etc.)
6. Mario or Sonic?
7. Dumbasssaywhat?
8. Your most hated printer?
9. Your favorite mode of transportation?
10. Where is Carmen SanDiego?
11. Do you like me? : )
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Tag 11? Nah, I don't even know that many people. If you read this, take it upon yourself or not; It's up to you.
That'll do it for now, folks. Take care and keep in touch, peace ~
While things aren't fully restored, I'm glad to at least say I can get on DA more often now.
My ma' and brother made a collaboration to buy a laptop. Since when I had mine they both borrowed it on occasion, it would only be fair for me to use theirs also.
It's a good piece of hardware: A Gateway NV56R06u. Good memory and processor, but a god-awful keyboard. They keys are so stiff and insensitive, you have to use more force when typing, which leads to easier fatigue. Hell, as I write this, I already feel like I need a break.
Since this is another PC, all my data is still lost. I did manage to install my tablet, along with Gimp & Elements. The downer is that all brushes, preferences, etc are all lost.
Speaking of tablets, after about so months of not using it, it feels like learning to use it for the first time all over again. I'm not kidding, my hand felt just a twitchy, if not more so. Meh, I think I'll manage.
Life wise, it can all be summed up in four words: Border-FREAKIN'-lands two!!
I love this game, it totally blew my expectations out of the water. The game is an FPS RPG -OMG - with loot raiding. That's a little sub-genre I am quite fond of; call me crazy, but I love repeating the game just so I can get my hands on slightly shinier piece of armor with probably only one point of defense added. It sounds pathetic writing it out, but eff' yo opinion - This time, I know I am not alone. Haha!
The game took everything from the first installment and multiplied it ten fold. The classes are more varied, characters are more fleshed out, gameplay is smoothed even more, items are seemingly infinite, and the story... Man, the story! If you played the first one, you really didn't have much expectations when it came to the plot since it was as vanilla as it got: Treasure, find it. In this sequel, the game smacks you in the face with a very well written storyline, deep and hilarious characters, and a villain that goes down as the most lovable, yet most sinister bad guy in a video game since Kefka. Not once, but twice, did the plot make my hands drop the controller just so I could cover my mouth with a gasp.
I might be giving the game too much credit for it's story, but in today's age where it always seems to take a back seat to gameplay, it's a very nice breath of fresh air.
To prevent me from writing a full review, I'll just say I highly recommend it to everyone who even remotely likes shooters and/or RPGs. Easily Game of the Year in my book.
Just to spice up this journal entry, I'll take up AleksiRemesArt's latest tag upon myself. Ready? No? Well tough shit.
- ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -
Rules:
1. Tell 11 facts about you.
2. Answer those 11 questions your tagger wrote.
3. Write 11 new questions for 11 people you tag.
- ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -
11 Facts:
1. I love my dog, Toby. He doesn't ask for much: food and walks, and he vows to be there for me always. If only people were more like that...
2. I can't decide what to do with my life. They say everyone goes through this, but I'm worried I might be taking too much time thinking about it.
3. Video games are bad for you, I know, but I still enjoy the hell out of them. : D
4. I stopped working out, and I am definitely noticing my body reverting to it's original skinny form. I need to take up some sort of martial art.
5. I haven't be drawing much lately. It's not because of lack of ideas, just loss of will power. Has anybody seen it?
6. As much as it pains me to admit, I have been watching a bit of anime and some 90's cartoons. Currently The Slayers and Inspector Gadget.
7. Also Firefly.
8. I broke up with my girlfriend. The break-up still makes no sense, but I'm glad we ended up at least being friends.
9. I'm worried I might have lost a dear friend during the drama. A good friend takes your back when you need it, but what if they do it when you don't?
10. I can't afford a haircut...
11. Border-FREAKIN'-lands TOO!!!!1
- ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -
AleksiRemesArt's 11 questions:
1. What is your favorite song?
Hmm, tough call... Crazy by Gnarls Barkly, probably.
2. What kind of characters do you tend to like the most? Heroes, anti-heroes or villains?
How about all of them? A good story tends to have at least one of each.
3. What is your Pokemon team?
Heheh, it's been awhile. Let's see... Ninetales, Hitmonlee, Alakazam, Raichu, Blastoise, and a random grass type.
4. Has there ever been any work of fiction (movie, video game, comic, book etc.) that has made you cry?
Not cry, but Chrono Trigger came close. "Crono Noooooooooo!"
5. What's your horoscope?
Leo... Rawr.
6. Do you follow politics?
Follow wha?
7. Do you like sweets?
Soda. Otherwise, not really.
8. Pick one of the following: coffee, tea or cocoa?
Sweet tea. Coffee leaves a bad taste in my mouth and cocoa is only good in winter.
9. Do you have any OCs? Introduce one of them.
I have been brainstorming one lately. Though her name is not yet finalized: She's Irish, American raised, with some Chinese heritage, works as a fitness instructor, fights with a personalized Tae kwon do/Brawler hybrid martial art, and is second in command in a skateboarding/tagging gang. Though regarded as a natural genius in everything she does by some, her personality leaves something to be desired. Cocky and hotheaded, although she does have a softer side towards select some.
10. How long have you been drawing/ writing?
Since kindergarten.
11. How many times have you done this meme?
First time, actually. : P
- ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -
And now 11 questions. I'll keep it simple, bonus points as to why:
1. What's your favorite bottled water brand?
2. Your shoe size?
3. Apples or oranges?
4. Your favorite season?
5. Your dress style? (Preppy, urban, punk, etc.)
6. Mario or Sonic?
7. Dumbasssaywhat?
8. Your most hated printer?
9. Your favorite mode of transportation?
10. Where is Carmen SanDiego?
11. Do you like me? : )
- ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -
Tag 11? Nah, I don't even know that many people. If you read this, take it upon yourself or not; It's up to you.
That'll do it for now, folks. Take care and keep in touch, peace ~
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Random journal: ipod gripes
3 min read
More and more I ask myself if I'll be missed if I were to stop visiting Deviantart. Besides maybe two or three comrades, will people visit and follow the junk I put here? Will they read this and other future journals? Will they care about my boring, pathetic existence? Unlikely, but I'll keep talking anyways. Because in the wonderful world of the internet, if you can convince one bloke to so much as glance at your life stories, it'll fill your starving self-esteem for a good week or two.
On DA, the ongoing community-set rule is to comment back on whoever comments on you. While that's fair and fruity, it's a pain in the lower part of the back of the canister that is my body to do such a simple task. Why? Mainly because I'm temporarily restricted to an ipod for internet access. It's a real chore, lemme tell ya'; Try typing what I've written down thus far in one those bloody things. Go on, I'll wait...
*Intermission*
Blows, don't it? Unless your some old, skinny nun with pencil-thin index fingers, you probably had a hard time trying to type anything. "Haha, you are just so fat that you can't possibly type with those sausage links you call fingers". That is where you are incorrect, you hypothetical bastard. I was bullied in middle-school for having femininely small, soft hands. To this day, they've retained their shape and I still get crap about it - but nowhere near as often. Maybe that has to do with my knuckles somehow getting rougher... Too much info?
Also, the mobile interface of DA is pretty limited. For example, commenting on deviations, to my knowledge, is an absent feature. I tried switching to the desktop version, but all that ended up giving me was excruciatingly long loading times and buggy navigation. I took me an entire commercial break to check my notes, no joke.
So, is going online in an ipod worth it? Short answer: No. Long answer: Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
And you know what's sad? Despite all that, I still managed to type this entire journal... Bleep, freakin' bloop!
Now if you'll excuse me, I need to find a way to get the last hour of my life back. Toodles ~
P.S. Jojo's Bizarre Adventure HD on XBLA: Awesome fighting game with tight controls, good soundtrack, and likable characters. But, and it's a big smelly "but", it's ridiculously over-priced... Oh Capcom, you greedy monsters, you. Anyone seriously think the price is justifiable?
P.P.S. Thank you all for the birthday messages. Didn't think anyone would remember, let alone care. *sniff*
On DA, the ongoing community-set rule is to comment back on whoever comments on you. While that's fair and fruity, it's a pain in the lower part of the back of the canister that is my body to do such a simple task. Why? Mainly because I'm temporarily restricted to an ipod for internet access. It's a real chore, lemme tell ya'; Try typing what I've written down thus far in one those bloody things. Go on, I'll wait...
*Intermission*
Blows, don't it? Unless your some old, skinny nun with pencil-thin index fingers, you probably had a hard time trying to type anything. "Haha, you are just so fat that you can't possibly type with those sausage links you call fingers". That is where you are incorrect, you hypothetical bastard. I was bullied in middle-school for having femininely small, soft hands. To this day, they've retained their shape and I still get crap about it - but nowhere near as often. Maybe that has to do with my knuckles somehow getting rougher... Too much info?
Also, the mobile interface of DA is pretty limited. For example, commenting on deviations, to my knowledge, is an absent feature. I tried switching to the desktop version, but all that ended up giving me was excruciatingly long loading times and buggy navigation. I took me an entire commercial break to check my notes, no joke.
So, is going online in an ipod worth it? Short answer: No. Long answer: Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
And you know what's sad? Despite all that, I still managed to type this entire journal... Bleep, freakin' bloop!
Now if you'll excuse me, I need to find a way to get the last hour of my life back. Toodles ~
P.S. Jojo's Bizarre Adventure HD on XBLA: Awesome fighting game with tight controls, good soundtrack, and likable characters. But, and it's a big smelly "but", it's ridiculously over-priced... Oh Capcom, you greedy monsters, you. Anyone seriously think the price is justifiable?
P.P.S. Thank you all for the birthday messages. Didn't think anyone would remember, let alone care. *sniff*
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