From the blankets, he will rise...

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One year. One entire year from this place...
I can practically feel the dust entering my throat and cobwebs sticking to my now ridiculously long hair.

As I dust off my old profile and look back at - not only my old projects, but my fellow devwatcher's too - I wonder why I ever stopped visiting, contributing, and socializing on DA in the first place.

Initially I thought it was my self-esteem taking a deep dive in my artwork; feeling that my desire to improve wasn't going at a fast enough pace.
And how could I not? On a daily basis, I come across projects whose quality is well above mine. I know it isn't a healthy perspective, but it's a subconscious thought that pesters on the back of my mind every time I check my devwatch.

Perhaps it was the lack of recognition? I always tell myself that I am a small time artist that treats this stuff as a hobby above all else. Not to mention, I'm not as sociable I used to be to go out there and gather new watchers.

As I write this, I still have no idea what it might have been...
I enjoyed drawing, creating the stories that came with every project.
I enjoyed the little feedback that I got from them.
I enjoyed the conversations had from that feedback.

Dwelling, looking for an answer won't change much.

As you might suspect, I write here to prove that I tend to change that.

Although I haven't drawn in a long time, my ideas never stopped coming.
My first batch of to-be projects will be some new character designs. A great theme to start out with considering it's what I used to specialize in.

It's high time I restarted putting them on paper/tablet. I just hope I'm not too rusty...
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:iconwelcomebackplz:

Glad to see you back.  Just remember, as you look at another's work and gape, so to, is another doing the same looking at your work.  I've seen it happen, because it happened to me.

One other thing, don't draw for the sake of knocking people's socks off.  Draw for yourself, draw for fun.  And then the peeps will see you having fun and want a bit of that too.