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One year. One entire year from this place...
I can practically feel the dust entering my throat and cobwebs sticking to my now ridiculously long hair.
As I dust off my old profile and look back at - not only my old projects, but my fellow devwatcher's too - I wonder why I ever stopped visiting, contributing, and socializing on DA in the first place.
Initially I thought it was my self-esteem taking a deep dive in my artwork; feeling that my desire to improve wasn't going at a fast enough pace.
And how could I not? On a daily basis, I come across projects whose quality is well above mine. I know it isn't a healthy perspective, but it's a subconscious thought that pesters on the back of my mind every time I check my devwatch.
Perhaps it was the lack of recognition? I always tell myself that I am a small time artist that treats this stuff as a hobby above all else. Not to mention, I'm not as sociable I used to be to go out there and gather new watchers.
As I write this, I still have no idea what it might have been...
I enjoyed drawing, creating the stories that came with every project.
I enjoyed the little feedback that I got from them.
I enjoyed the conversations had from that feedback.
Dwelling, looking for an answer won't change much.
As you might suspect, I write here to prove that I tend to change that.
Although I haven't drawn in a long time, my ideas never stopped coming.
My first batch of to-be projects will be some new character designs. A great theme to start out with considering it's what I used to specialize in.
It's high time I restarted putting them on paper/tablet. I just hope I'm not too rusty...
I can practically feel the dust entering my throat and cobwebs sticking to my now ridiculously long hair.
As I dust off my old profile and look back at - not only my old projects, but my fellow devwatcher's too - I wonder why I ever stopped visiting, contributing, and socializing on DA in the first place.
Initially I thought it was my self-esteem taking a deep dive in my artwork; feeling that my desire to improve wasn't going at a fast enough pace.
And how could I not? On a daily basis, I come across projects whose quality is well above mine. I know it isn't a healthy perspective, but it's a subconscious thought that pesters on the back of my mind every time I check my devwatch.
Perhaps it was the lack of recognition? I always tell myself that I am a small time artist that treats this stuff as a hobby above all else. Not to mention, I'm not as sociable I used to be to go out there and gather new watchers.
As I write this, I still have no idea what it might have been...
I enjoyed drawing, creating the stories that came with every project.
I enjoyed the little feedback that I got from them.
I enjoyed the conversations had from that feedback.
Dwelling, looking for an answer won't change much.
As you might suspect, I write here to prove that I tend to change that.
Although I haven't drawn in a long time, my ideas never stopped coming.
My first batch of to-be projects will be some new character designs. A great theme to start out with considering it's what I used to specialize in.
It's high time I restarted putting them on paper/tablet. I just hope I'm not too rusty...
DeviantHEART...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=a9U_C_q6WcU
Just remember what day it is.
Going home
Hey everyone, how's it going?
Just a heads up to my 3 or 2 watchers, me and my family will be moving back to our old house very soon.
During the transition, we will not have any internet access for awhile.
I might use some hotspots or friend's internet if I get the chance.
In the meantime, I'll use the break to be a bit more productive, like draw some more, buy some clothes, get in shape, go back to school, get a job, learn a new language, end world hunger, and maybe even cure cancer.
But I'll probably end up playing some more Xbox.
Take care ~
And back again...
Hey, how's everyone doing?
While things aren't fully restored, I'm glad to at least say I can get on DA more often now.
My ma' and brother made a collaboration to buy a laptop. Since when I had mine they both borrowed it on occasion, it would only be fair for me to use theirs also.
It's a good piece of hardware: A Gateway NV56R06u. Good memory and processor, but a god-awful keyboard. They keys are so stiff and insensitive, you have to use more force when typing, which leads to easier fatigue. Hell, as I write this, I already feel like I need a break.
Since this is another PC, all my data is still lost. I did manage to install my tablet,
Random journal: ipod gripes
More and more I ask myself if I'll be missed if I were to stop visiting Deviantart. Besides maybe two or three comrades, will people visit and follow the junk I put here? Will they read this and other future journals? Will they care about my boring, pathetic existence? Unlikely, but I'll keep talking anyways. Because in the wonderful world of the internet, if you can convince one bloke to so much as glance at your life stories, it'll fill your starving self-esteem for a good week or two.
On DA, the ongoing community-set rule is to comment back on whoever comments on you. While that's fair and fruity, it's a pain in the lower part of the back
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Glad to see you back. Just remember, as you look at another's work and gape, so to, is another doing the same looking at your work. I've seen it happen, because it happened to me.
One other thing, don't draw for the sake of knocking people's socks off. Draw for yourself, draw for fun. And then the peeps will see you having fun and want a bit of that too.